About Her

Hello,

This is going to be a short read.
a few weeks maybe even months I don't remember to well something happened to "her" I have been begged and sworn to secrecy over it and that is her wish... the police on the other hand have turned their backs on us and so have our family and friends so.... difficult time...
Please understand that there will be information on her soon just not now, I will NEVER write about her or include her name on here until she is comfortable with that.
It will happen soon I promise you that... just not now!


This is the main reason this Journal exists, because she deserves so much better and I think first things first she needs a vacation and to personally know I am not going anywhere, this is to raise funds for that and to share my fund raising with the world!

Thanks for understanding!

She has given me permission to tell everyone I see because I'm not sure but to her I think it makes it better.. maybe makes her feel safer?

About a month ago now my girlfriend was Raped, she was Raped and beaten for being nice to the new guy on the block, he followed her into the women's toilets at our local park and he punched her in the crotch... he then held her down and had his way with her.

I really have no idea what to type and am hoping that what I am typing is making sense because it is hard to justify this under writing...

She came to my house and she was covered in mud and was really shaking... she sat in my computer chair and just started crying... I tried to hug her but she flipped out and started punching me and screaming so I left her to it...

Then she asked my permission to use my shower she said she had horrible stuff on her and felt dirty so I let her use the shower... she was in there for about half hour at least... she came in and sat on bed next to me and asked if I still wanted to hug her...

She told me everything that happened in every single detail and fir first time in my life I think my heart stopped beating and that little part of me that... that little part of anyone that wants to hurt people for pure sake of it... that little fellow came up.

I wanted to go to his house and I wanted to slam his head into his wall as hard and for as long as possible...

You see we know her attacker and now we know he has done it before... he is called Ryan Underhill and he lives a few doors down from me.... he breathes my air and lives on the same let alone dirt but the same street as me.

This might seem the worse part but the worse part is the Police treated us like the criminals and because he lied to them have dropped the case as it would take to much work to bring him to justice... this may seem the worse part but no... we have had an official warning that if ANY one touches him my girl will be charged with assault and they would prosecute the attacker to the fullest....

no that is not even the worst part.. the worst part is she has to live with him just down the road knowing that this is his hobby... that he rapes girls and is untouchable and that at the end of the day he has protection... we don't and we never will...


You want the good news?

Our lives were saved....

You may wander why I had ignored the Journal for awhile? fine I'll admit I was planning on Murdering Ryan Underhill... it was my job and my job alone to protect her and keep her safe and I'd failed.. as a boyfriend and as a man.. I was worthless and dammit if it was the only way to keep her safe and to keep other girls that unfortunately will also probably end up bumping into him then so be it...

Now the saving part?

A very nice woman (who will not be named but she knows who she is) a nice woman who I am dedicating this heart felt rant to got up on my facebook and suggested the shinning light that we needed to get through this...

We from possibly tomorrow then if not Friday will be studying Karate... I think it is perfect to build her confidence and train her in the use of self defence so that nothing like this will ever happen again...

I just still feel bad it may happen to other girls in my area and there is no stopping him...

I hope this will help us both but I also hope he will meet justice....



Thanks for reading this.. I'm sorry there was no easy way to type that and there was no easy way of typing my own actions and how I would use those actions... you might think of me as Evil trust me.. so do I but at least from the good heart of another person we were saved... we thank you internet stranger... and I'm sure our children will thank you in the many years to come!